"I want to be awful. I want to do awful things and why not? Dull is dull is dull is my life. Awful is easy if you make it your one and only"I know i’m a bad person. I know this. People would know this if they could read my mind. The things that run around my head constantly, are bad, very bad. But aren’t we all like that? Aren’t we all secretly thinking bad, bad thoughts? Terrible thoughts even. But I suppose that does not excuse our own thoughts. If we all shared our thoughts truthfully would we find that we are basically about as screwed up as each other? Would we then be able to do what we actually want instead of what is ‘right’? I would choose the wrong option if it was right for me, if they would let me. Would that not make the right decision wrong because people always say “do what makes you happy”. Is that not a contradiction in itself? As people never want you to do what you want but only what is deemed as ‘right’? If I had a choice, and I know I don’t, I would choose the wrong one over and over again even though I know how it turns out. The truth is we are all willing to feel pain, sometimes we want it I suppose..It keeps interesting I find